| Wow, haven't touched this xanga in a while. Well I don't think anyone still goes on this thing but I'm bored and need to vent. So life isn't exactly going my way at the moment. I've dug myself into a deep hole in school and am in way too deep to get myself out. Ryan fucked up again big time and is back in virginia. I don't think he understands what it's like on my side of it all. I just got back from going to see him. I won't see him for another 5 weeks but ill be there all spring break. His new medication makes him lack emotions. And sometimes he really hurts my feelings over the little stuff i know he doesnt mean to, but either way i wish he would just think about the emotional rollercoaster that the disorders and all that put me through. I know it will take time for him to get it together, and he gets angry because he can't help the way he is. I just wish things were easier. |
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| everythings gonna be fine.............
but then you moved across the country
its for the best but im still selfish me
we'll make it through cuz you love me and i love you even though were eight states apart i hold you close in my heart<3ryan |
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| THIS FUCKING SUCKS!!!! i hate this i hate waiting here i hate not knowing when the hell im gonna see you again and i hate the fact that you might be missing me less by the second cuz thats what you do. so now your not coming back and i wish this wouldnt end cuz your my best friend and i dont want to lose you.
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| i miss you .....would you just get here already and surprise me!!
youve only been gone 10 days and already im wasting away
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